Life Update and a Big Confession

Hi, everyone! It’s been a LONG time since my last post and I apologize for not being present here. However, it’s been a busy few months with a baby, but now that she’s nearly 7 months, we seem to have a predictable routine.

Now that the baby has a nice, predictable routine, I must admit that I have not put nearly as much effort into my own health. I let it slide BIG TIME! I have not had a thyroid check in forever, it seems. That will get updated ASAP.

Now, time for a confession: I have done a lot of self-reflection and I realized that I have a very unhealthy relationship with food. As a matter of fact, my Instagram was full of paleo and gluten-free, nutrient-dense meals and recipes. That’s all good, but what I never noticed about myself before was that I was obsessed with food. While I would be eating a meal, I would be planning my next one. My mind was all about food all the time. It made me very self-conscious. Did people around me notice this? I had been like that as long as I could remember. If I was not bingeing on food after everyone went to bed, I would be restricting and it would turn into this terrible cycle of yo-yo dieting. Binge. Restrict. Binge. Restrict. It’s no surprise I have not lost weight. It’s no surprise I do not feel any better, no matter what thyroid medication I’m taking or what supplements I’m taking. It’s a much deeper issue.

I have a new goal for myself: food freedom. I don’t want to be stuck in my head thinking about food. I want to be able to enjoy other things and feel good. I want to be able to eat intuitively and mindfully. I want to re-train my brain to realize I don’t need to eat a ridiculous amount of something to feel “good”.

It’s going to be a marathon, not a sprint. You can join me on this NEW journey here and on my Instagram page.

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